The clock struck half past two. In the little office at the back
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of Mr McKechnie's bookshop, Gordon--Gordon Comstock, last member
of the Comstock family, aged twenty-nine and rather moth-eaten
already--lounged across the table, pushing a four-penny packet of
Player's Weights open and shut with his thumb.
The ding-dong of another, remoter clock--from the Prince of Wales,
the other side of the street--rippled the stagnant air. Gordon
made an effort, sat upright, and stowed his packet of cigarettes
away in his inside pocket. He was perishing for a smoke. However,
there were only four cigarettes left. Today was Wednesday and he
had no money coming to him till Friday. It would be too bloody to
be without tobacco tonight as well as all tomorrow.
Bored in advance by tomorrow's tobaccoless hours, he got up and
moved towards the door--a small frail figure, with delicate bones
and fretful movements. His coat was out at elbow in the right
sleeve and its middle button was missing; his ready-made flannel
trousers were stained and shapeless. Even from above you could see
that his shoes needed resoling.
The money clinked in his trouser pocket as he got up. He knew
the precise sum that was there. Fivepence halfpenny--twopence
halfpenny and a Joey. He paused, took out the miserable little
threepenny-bit, and looked at it. Beastly, useless thing! And
bloody fool to have taken it! It had happened yesterday, when he
was buying cigarettes. 'Don't mind a threepenny-bit, do you, sir?'
the little bitch of a shop-girl had chirped. And of course he had
let her give it him. 'Oh no, not at all!' he had said--fool,
His heart sickened to think that he had only fivepence halfpenny in
the world, threepence of which couldn't even be spent. Because how
can you buy anything with a threepenny-bit? It isn't a coin, it's
the answer to a riddle. You look such a fool when you take it out
of your pocket, unless it's in among a whole handful of other
coins. 'How much?' you say. 'Threepence,' the shop-girl says.
And then you feel all round your pocket and fish out that absurd
little thing, all by itself, sticking on the end of your finger
like a tiddley-wink. The shop-girl sniffs. She spots immediately
that it's your last threepence in the world. You see her glance
quickly at it--she's wondering whether there's a piece of Christmas
pudding still sticking to it. And you stalk out with your nose in
the air, and can't ever go to that shop again. No! We won't spend
our Joey. Twopence halfpenny left--twopence halfpenny to last till
This was the lonely after-dinner hour, when few or no customers
were to be expected. He was alone with seven thousand books. The
small dark room, smelling of dust and decayed paper, that gave on
the office, was filled to the brim with books, mostly aged and
unsaleable. On the top shelves near the ceiling the quarto volumes
of extinct encyclopedias slumbered on their sides in piles like the
tiered coffins in common graves. Gordon pushed aside the blue,
dust-sodden curtains that served as a doorway to the next room.
This, better lighted than the other, contained the lending library.
It was one of those 'twopenny no-deposit' libraries beloved of
book-pinchers. No books in it except novels, of course. And WHAT
novels! But that too was a matter of course.
Eight hundred strong, the novels lined the room on three sides
ceiling-high, row upon row of gaudy oblong backs, as though the
walls had been built of many-coloured bricks laid upright. They
were arranged alphabetically. Arlen, Burroughs, Deeping, Dell,
Frankau, Galsworthy, Gibbs, Priestley, Sapper, Walpole. Gordon
eyed them with inert hatred. At this moment he hated all books,
and novels most of all. Horrible to think of all that soggy, half-
baked trash massed together in one place. Pudding, suet pudding.
Eight hundred slabs of pudding, walling him in--a vault of
puddingstone. The thought was oppressive. He moved on through the
open doorway into the front part of the shop. In doing so, he
smoothed his hair. It was an habitual movement. After all, there
might be girls outside the glass door. Gordon was not impressive
to look at. He was just five feet seven inches high, and because
his hair was usually too long he gave the impression that his head
was a little too big for his body. He was never quite unconscious
of his small stature. When he knew that anyone was looking at him
he carried himself very upright, throwing a chest, with a you-be-
damned air which occasionally deceived simple people.
However, there was nobody outside. The front room, unlike the rest
of the shop, was smart and expensive-looking, and it contained
about two thousand books, exclusive of those in the window. On the
right there was a glass showcase in which children's books were
kept. Gordon averted his eyes from a beastly Rackhamesque dust-
jacket; elvish children tripping Wendily through a bluebell glade.
He gazed out through the glass door. A foul day, and the wind
rising. The sky was leaden, the cobbles of the street were slimy.
It was St Andrew's day, the thirtieth of November. McKechnie's
stood on a corner, on a sort of shapeless square where four streets
converged. To the left, just within sight from the door, stood a
great elm-tree, leafless now, its multitudinous twigs making sepia-
coloured lace against the sky. Opposite, next to the Prince of
Wales, were tall hoardings covered with ads for patent foods and
patent medicines. A gallery of monstrous doll-faces--pink vacuous
faces, full of goofy optimism. Q.T. Sauce, Truweet Breakfast
Crisps ('Kiddies clamour for their Breakfast Crisps'), Kangaroo
Burgundy, Vitamalt Chocolate, Bovex. Of them all, the Bovex one
oppressed Gordon the most. A spectacled rat-faced clerk, with
patent-leather hair, sitting at a cafe table grinning over a white
mug of Bovex. 'Corner Table enjoys his meal with Bovex', the
Gordon shortened the focus of his eyes. From the dust-dulled pane
the reflection of his own face looked back at him. Not a good
face. Not thirty yet, but moth-eaten already. Very pale, with
bitter, ineradicable lines. What people call a 'good' forehead--
high, that is--but a small pointed chin, so that the face as a
whole was pear-shaped rather than oval. Hair mouse-coloured and
unkempt, mouth unamiable, eyes hazel inclining to green. He
lengthened the focus of his eyes again. He hated mirrors nowadays.
Outside, all was bleak and wintry. A tram, like a raucous swan of
steel, glided groaning over the cobbles, and in its wake the wind
swept a debris of trampled leaves. The twigs of the elm-tree were
swirling, straining eastward. The poster that advertised Q.T.
Sauce was torn at the edge; a ribbon of paper fluttered fitfully
like a tiny pennant. In the side street too, to the right, the
naked poplars that lined the pavement bowed sharply as the wind
caught them. A nasty raw wind. There was a threatening note in it
as it swept over; the first growl of winter's anger. Two lines of
a poem struggled for birth in Gordon's mind:
Sharply the something wind--for instance, threatening wind? No,
better, menacing wind. The menacing wind blows over--no, sweeps
The something poplars--yielding poplars? No, better, bending
poplars. Assonance between bending and menacing? No matter. The
bending poplars, newly bare. Good.
Sharply the menacing wind sweeps over
The bending poplars, newly bare.
Good. 'Bare' is a sod to rhyme; however, there's always 'air',
which every poet since Chaucer has been struggling to find rhymes
for. But the impulse died away in Gordon's mind. He turned the
money over in his pocket. Twopence halfpenny and a Joey--twopence
halfpenny. His mind was sticky with boredom. He couldn't cope
with rhymes and adjectives. You can't, with only twopence
halfpenny in your pocket.
His eyes refocused themselves upon the posters opposite. He had
his private reasons for hating them. Mechanically he re-read their
slogans. 'Kangaroo Burgundy--the wine for Britons.' 'Asthma was
choking her!' 'Q.T. Sauce Keeps Hubby Smiling.' 'Hike all day on
a Slab of Vitamalt!' 'Curve Cut--the Smoke for Outdoor Men.'
'Kiddies clamour for their Breakfast Crisps.' 'Corner Table enjoys
his meal with Bovex.'
Ha! A customer--potential, at any rate. Gordon stiffened himself.
Standing by the door, you could get an oblique view out of the
front window without being seen yourself. He looked the potential
A decentish middle-aged man, black suit, bowler hat, umbrella, and
dispatch-case--provincial solicitor or Town Clerk--keeking at the
window with large pale-coloured eyes. He wore a guilty look.
Gordon followed the direction of his eyes. Ah! So that was it!
He had nosed out those D. H. Lawrence first editions in the far
corner. Pining for a bit of smut, of course. He had heard of Lady
Chatterley afar off. A bad face he had, Gordon thought. Pale,
heavy, downy, with bad contours. Welsh, by the look of him--
Nonconformist, anyway. He had the regular Dissenting pouches round
the corners of his mouth. At home, president of the local Purity
League or Seaside Vigilance Committee (rubber-soled slippers and
electric torch, spotting kissing couples along the beach parade),
and now up in town on the razzle. Gordon wished he would come in.
Sell him a copy of Women in Love. How it would disappoint him!
But no! The Welsh solicitor had funked it. He tucked his umbrella
under his arm and moved off with righteously turned backside. But
doubtless tonight, when darkness hid his blushes, he'd slink into
one of the rubber-shops and buy High Jinks in a Parisian Convent,
by Sadie Blackeyes.
Gordon turned away from the door and back to the book-shelves. In
the shelves to your left as you came out of the library the new and
nearly-new books were kept--a patch of bright colour that was meant
to catch the eye of anyone glancing through the glass door. Their
sleek unspotted backs seemed to yearn at you from the shelves.
'Buy me, buy me!' they seemed to be saying. Novels fresh from the
press--still unravished brides, pining for the paperknife to
deflower them--and review copies, like youthful widows, blooming
still though virgin no longer, and here and there, in sets of half
a dozen, those pathetic spinster-things, 'remainders', still
guarding hopefully their long preserv'd virginity. Gordon turned
his eyes away from the 'remainders'. They called up evil memories.
The single wretched little book that he himself had published, two
years ago, had sold exactly a hundred and fifty-three copies and
then been 'remaindered'; and even as a 'remainder' it hadn't sold.
He passed the new books by and paused in front of the shelves which
ran at right angles to them and which contained more second-hand
Over to the right were shelves of poetry. Those in front of him
were prose, a miscellaneous lot. Upwards and downwards they were
graded, from clean and expensive at eye-level to cheap and dingy at
top and bottom. In all book-shops there goes on a savage Darwinian
struggle in which the works of living men gravitate to eye-level
and the works of dead men go up or down--down to Gehenna or up to
the throne, but always away from any position where they will be
noticed. Down in the bottom shelves the 'classics', the extinct
monsters of the Victorian age, were quietly rotting. Scott,
Carlyle, Meredith, Ruskin, Pater, Stevenson--you could hardly read
the names upon their broad dowdy backs. In the top shelves, almost
out of sight, slept the pudgy biographies of dukes. Below those,
saleable still and therefore placed within reach, was 'religious'
literature--all sects and all creeds, lumped indiscriminately
together. The World Beyond, by the author of Spirit Hands Have
Touched me. Dean Farrar's Life of Christ. Jesus the First
Rotarian. Father Hilaire Chestnut's latest book of R. C.
propaganda. Religion always sells provided it is soppy enough.
Below, exactly at eye-level, was the contemporary stuff.
Priestley's latest. Dinky little books of reprinted 'middles'.
Cheer-up 'humour' from Herbert and Knox and Milne. Some highbrow
stuff as well. A novel or two by Hemingway and Virginia Woolf.
Smart pseudo-Strachey predigested biographies. Snooty, refined
books on safe painters and safe poets by those moneyed young beasts
who glide so gracefully from Eton to Cambridge and from Cambridge
to the literary reviews.
Dull-eyed, he gazed at the wall of books. He hated the whole lot
of them, old and new, highbrow and lowbrow, snooty and chirpy. The
mere sight of them brought home to him his own sterility. For here
was he, supposedly a 'writer', and he couldn't even 'write'! It
wasn't merely a question of not getting published; it was that he
produced nothing, or next to nothing. And all that tripe
cluttering the shelves--well, at any rate it existed; it was an
achievement of sorts. Even the Dells and Deepings do at least turn
out their yearly acre of print. But it was the snooty 'cultured'
kind of books that he hated the worst. Books of criticism and
belles-lettres. The kind of thing that those moneyed young beasts
from Cambridge write almost in their sleep--and that Gordon himself
might have written if he had had a little more money. Money and
culture! In a country like England you can no more be cultured
without money than you can join the Cavalry Club. With the same
instinct that makes a child waggle a loose tooth, he took out a
snooty-looking volume--Some Aspects of the Italian Baroque--opened
it, read a paragraph, and shoved it back with mingled loathing and
envy. That devastating omniscience! That noxious, horn-spectacled
refinement! And the money that such refinement means! For after
all, what is there behind it, except money? Money for the right
kind of education, money for influential friends, money for leisure
and peace of mind, money for trips to Italy. Money writes books,
money sells them. Give me not righteousness, O Lord, give me
money, only money.
He jingled the coins in his pocket. He was nearly thirty and had
accomplished nothing; only his miserable book of poems that had
fallen flatter than any pancake. And ever since, for two whole
years, he had been struggling in the labyrinth of a dreadful book
that never got any further, and which, as he knew in his moments of
clarity, never would get any further. It was the lack of money,
simply the lack of money, that robbed him of the power to 'write'.
He clung to that as to an article of faith. Money, money, all is
money! Could you write even a penny novelette without money to put
heart in you? Invention, energy, wit, style, charm--they've all
got to be paid for in hard cash.
Nevertheless, as he looked along the shelves he felt himself a
little comforted. So many of the books were faded and unreadable.
After all, we're all in the same boat. Memento mori. For you and
for me and for the snooty young men from Cambridge, the same
oblivion waits--though doubtless it'll wait rather longer for those
snooty young men from Cambridge. He looked at the time-dulled
'classics' near his feet. Dead, all dead. Carlyle and Ruskin and
Meredith and Stevenson--all are dead, God rot them. He glanced
over their faded titles. Collected Letters of Robert Louis
Stevenson. Ha, ha! That's good. Collected Letters of Robert
Louis Stevenson! Its top edge was black with dust. Dust thou art,
to dust returnest. Gordon kicked Stevenson's buckram backside.
Art there, old false-penny? You're cold meat, if ever Scotchman
Ping! The shop bell. Gordon turned round. Two customers, for the
A dejected, round-shouldered, lower-class woman, looking like a
draggled duck nosing among garbage, seeped in, fumbling with a rush
basket. In her wake hopped a plump little sparrow of a woman, red-
cheeked, middle-middle class, carrying under her arm a copy of The
Forsyte Saga--title outwards, so that passers-by could spot her for
Gordon had taken off his sour expression. He greeted them with the
homey, family-doctor geniality reserved for library-subscribers.
'Good afternoon, Mrs Weaver. Good afternoon, Mrs Penn. What
'Shocking!' said Mrs Penn.
He stood aside to let them pass. Mrs Weaver upset her rush basket
and spilled on to the floor a much-thumbed copy of Ethel M. Dell's
Silver Wedding. Mrs Penn's bright bird-eye lighted upon it.
Behind Mrs Weaver's back she smiled up to Gordon, archly, as
highbrow to highbrow. Dell! The lowness of it! The books these
lower classes read! Understandingly, he smiled back. They passed
into the library, highbrow to highbrow smiling.
Mrs Penn laid The Forsyte Saga on the table and turned her sparrow-
bosom upon Gordon. She was always very affable to Gordon. She
addressed him as Mister Comstock, shopwalker though he was, and
held literary conversations with him. There was the free-masonry
of highbrows between them.
'I hope you enjoyed The Forsyte Saga, Mrs Penn?'
'What a perfectly MARVELLOUS achievement that book is, Mr Comstock!
Do you know that that makes the fourth time I've read it? An epic,
a real epic!'
Mrs Weaver nosed among the books, too dim-witted to grasp that they
were in alphabetical order.
'I don't know what to 'ave this week, that I don't,' she mumbled
through untidy lips. 'My daughter she keeps on at me to 'ave a try
at Deeping. She's great on Deeping, my daughter is. But my son-
in-law, now, 'e's more for Burroughs. I don't know, I'm sure.'
A spasm passed over Mrs Penn's face at the mention of Burroughs.
She turned her back markedly on Mrs Weaver.
'What I feel, Mr Comstock, is that there's something so BIG about
Galsworthy. He's so broad, so universal, and yet at the same time
so thoroughly English in spirit, so HUMAN. His books are real
'And Priestley, too,' said Gordon. 'I think Priestley's such an
awfully fine writer, don't you?'
'Oh, he is! So big, so broad, so human! And so essentially
Mrs Weaver pursed her lips. Behind them were three isolated yellow
'I think p'raps I can do better'n 'ave another Dell,' she said.
'You 'ave got some more Dells, 'aven't you? I DO enjoy a good read
of Dell, I must say. I says to my daughter, I says, "You can keep
your Deepings and your Burroughses. Give me Dell," I says.'
Ding Dong Dell! Dukes and dogwhips! Mrs Penn's eye signalled
highbrow irony. Gordon returned her signal. Keep in with Mrs
Penn! A good, steady customer.
'Oh, certainly, Mrs Weaver. We've got a whole shelf by Ethel M.
Dell. Would you like The Desire of his Life? Or perhaps you've
read that. Then what about The Alter of Honour?'
'I wonder whether you have Hugh Walpole's latest book?' said Mrs
Penn. 'I feel in the mood this week for something epic, something
BIG. Now Walpole, you know, I consider a really GREAT writer, I
put him second only to Galsworthy. There's something so BIG about
him. And yet he's so human with it.'
'And so essentially English,' said Gordon.
'Oh, of course! So essentially English!'
'I b'lieve I'll jest 'ave The Way of an Eagle over again,' said Mrs
Weaver finally. 'You don't never seem to get tired of The Way of
an Eagle, do you, now?'
'It's certainly astonishingly popular,' said Gordon, diplomatically,
his eye on Mrs Penn.
'Oh, asTONishingly!' echoed Mrs Penn, ironically, her eye on
He took their twopences and sent them happy away, Mrs Penn with
Walpole's Rogue Herries and Mrs Weaver with The Way of an Eagle.
Soon he had wandered back to the other room and towards the shelves
of poetry. A melancholy fascination, those shelves had for him.
His own wretched book was there--skied, of course, high up among
the unsaleable. Mice, by Gordon Comstock; a sneaky little foolscap
octavo, price three and sixpence but now reduced to a bob. Of the
thirteen B.F.s who had reviewed it (and The Times Lit. Supp. had
declared that it showed 'exceptional promise') not one had seen the
none too subtle joke of that title. And in the two years he had
been at McKechnie's bookshop, not a single customer, not a single
one, had ever taken Mice out of its shelf.
There were fifteen or twenty shelves of poetry. Gordon regarded
them sourly. Dud stuff, for the most part. A little above eye-
level, already on their way to heaven and oblivion, were the poets
of yesteryear, the stars of his earlier youth. Yeats, Davies,
Housman, Thomas, De la Mare, Hardy. Dead stars. Below them,
exactly at eye-level, were the squibs of the passing minute.
Eliot, Pound, Auden, Campbell, Day Lewis, Spender. Very damp
squibs, that lot. Dead stars above, damp squibs below. Shall we
ever again get a writer worth reading? But Lawrence was all right,
and Joyce even better before he went off his coconut. And if we
did get a writer worth reading, should we know him when we saw him,
so choked as we are with trash?
Ping! Shop bell. Gordon turned. Another customer.
A youth of twenty, cherry-lipped, with gilded hair, tripped
Nancifully in. Moneyed, obviously. He had the golden aura of
money. He had been in the shop before. Gordon assumed the
gentlemanly-servile mien reserved for new customers. He repeated
the usual formula:
'Good afternoon. Can I do anything for you? Are you looking for
any particular book?'
'Oh, no, not weally.' An R-less Nancy voice. 'May I just BWOWSE?
I simply couldn't wesist your fwont window. I have such a tewwible
weakness for bookshops! So I just floated in--tee-hee!'
Float out again, then, Nancy. Gordon smiled a cultured smile, as
booklover to booklover.
'Oh, please do. We like people to look round. Are you interested
in poetry, by any chance?'
'Oh, of course! I ADORE poetwy!'
Of course! Mangy little snob. There was a sub-artistic look about
his clothes. Gordon slid a 'slim' red volume from the poetry
'These are just out. They might interest you, perhaps. They're
translations--something rather out of the common. Translations
from the Bulgarian.'
Very subtle, that. Now leave him to himself. That's the proper
way with customers. Don't hustle them; let them browse for twenty
minutes or so; then they get ashamed and buy something. Gordon
moved to the door, discreetly, keeping out of Nancy's way; yet
casually, one hand in his pocket, with the insouciant air proper to
Outside, the slimy street looked grey and drear. From somewhere
round the corner came the clatter of hooves, a cold hollow sound.
Caught by the wind, the dark columns of smoke from the chimneys
veered over and rolled flatly down the sloping roofs. Ah!
Sharply the menacing wind sweeps over
The bending poplars, newly bare,
And the dark ribbons of the chimneys
Veer downward tumty tumty (something like 'murky') air.
Good. But the impulse faded. His eye fell again upon the ad-
posters across the street.
He almost wanted to laugh at them, they were so feeble, so dead-
alive, so unappetizing. As though anybody could be tempted by
THOSE! Like succubi with pimply backsides. But they depressed him
all the same. The money-stink, everywhere the money-stink. He
stole a glance at the Nancy, who had drifted away from the poetry
shelves and taken out a large expensive book on the Russian ballet.
He was holding it delicately between his pink non-prehensile paws,
as a squirrel holds a nut, studying the photographs. Gordon knew
his type. The moneyed 'artistic' young man. Not an artist
himself, exactly, but a hanger-on of the arts; frequenter of
studios, retailer of scandal. A nice-looking boy, though, for all
his Nancitude. The skin at the back of his neck was as silky-
smooth as the inside of a shell. You can't have a skin like that
under five hundred a year. A sort of charm he had, a glamour, like
all moneyed people. Money and charm; who shall separate them?
Gordon thought of Ravelston, his charming, rich friend, editor of
Antichrist, of whom he was extravagantly fond, and whom he did not
see so often as once in a fortnight; and of Rosemary, his girl, who
loved him--adored him, so she said--and who, all the same, had
never slept with him. Money, once again; all is money. All human
relationships must be purchased with money. If you have no money,
men won't care for you, women won't love you; won't, that is, care
for you or love you the last little bit that matters. And how
right they are, after all! For, moneyless, you are unlovable.
Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels. But then,
if I haven't money, I DON'T speak with the tongues of men and of
He looked again at the ad-posters. He really hated them this time.
That Vitamalt one, for instance! 'Hike all day on a slab of
Vitamalt!' A youthful couple, boy and girl, in clean-minded hiking
kit, their hair picturesquely tousled by the wind, climbing a stile
against a Sussex landscape. That girl's face! The awful bright
tomboy cheeriness of it! The kind of girl who goes in for Plenty
of Clean Fun. Windswept. Tight khaki shorts but that doesn't mean
you can pinch her backside. And next to them--Corner Table.
'Corner Table enjoys his meal with Bovex'. Gordon examined the
thing with the intimacy of hatred. The idiotic grinning face, like
the face of a self-satisfied rat, the slick black hair, the silly
spectacles. Corner Table, heir of the ages; victor of Waterloo,
Corner Table, Modern man as his master want him to be. A docile
little porker, sitting in the money-sty, drinking Bovex.
Faces passed, wind-yellowed. A tram boomed across the square, and
the clock over the Prince of Wales struck three. A couple of old
creatures, a tramp or a beggar and his wife, in long greasy
overcoats that reached almost to the ground, were shuffling towards
the shop. Book-pinchers, by the look of them. Better keep an eye
on the boxes outside. The old man halted on the kerb a few yards
away while his wife came to the door. She pushed it open and
looked up at Gordon, between grey strings of hair, with a sort of
'Ju buy books?' she demanded hoarsely.
'Sometimes. It depends what books they are.'
'I gossome LOVELY books 'ere.'
She came in, shutting the door with a clang. The Nancy glanced
over his shoulder distastefully and moved a step or two away, into
the corner. The old woman had produced a greasy little sack from
under her overcoat. She moved confidentially nearer to Gordon.
She smelt of very, very old breadcrusts.
'Will you 'ave 'em?' she said, clasping the neck of the sack.
'Only 'alf a crown the lot.'
'What are they? Let me see them, please.'
'LOVELY books, they are,' she breathed, bending over to open the
sack and emitting a sudden very powerful whiff of breadcrusts.
''Ere!' she said, and thrust an armful of filthy-looking books
almost into Gordon's face.
They were an 1884 edition of Charlotte M. Yonge's novels, and had
the appearance of having been slept on for many years. Gordon
stepped back, suddenly revolted.
'We can't possibly buy those,' he said shortly.
'Can't buy 'em? WHY can't yer buy 'em?'
'Because they're no use to us. We can't sell that kind of thing.'
'Wotcher make me take 'em out o' me bag for, then?' demanded the
old woman ferociously.
Gordon made a detour round her, to avoid the smell, and held the
door open, silently. No use arguing. You had people of this type
coming into the shop all day long. The old woman made off,
mumbling, with malevolence in the hump of her shoulders, and joined
her husband. He paused on the kerb to cough, so fruitily that you
could hear him through the door. A clot of phlegm, like a little
white tongue, came slowly out between his lips and was ejected into
the gutter. Then the two old creatures shuffled away, beetle-like
in the long greasy overcoats that hid everything except their feet.
Gordon watched them go. They were just by-products. The throw-
outs of the money-god. All over London, by tens of thousands,
draggled old beasts of that description; creeping like unclean
beetles to the grave.
He gazed out at the graceless street. At this moment it seemed to
him that in a street like this, in a town like this, every life
that is lived must be meaningless and intolerable. The sense of
disintegration, of decay, that is endemic in our time, was strong
upon him. Somehow it was mixed up with the ad-posters opposite.
He looked now with more seeing eyes at those grinning yard-wide
faces. After all, there was more there than mere silliness, greed,
and vulgarity. Corner Table grins at you, seemingly optimistic,
with a flash of false teeth. But what is behind the grin?
Desolation, emptiness, prophecies of doom. For can you not see, if
you know how to look, that behind that slick self-satisfaction, that
tittering fat-bellied triviality, there is nothing but a frightful
emptiness, a secret despair? The great death-wish of the modern
world. Suicide pacts. Heads stuck in gas-ovens in lonely
maisonettes. French letters and Amen Pills. And the reverberations
of future wars. Enemy aeroplanes flying over London; the deep
threatening hum of the propellers, the shattering thunder of the
bombs. It is all written in Corner Table's face.
More customers coming. Gordon stood back, gentlemanly-servile.
The door-bell clanged. Two upper-middle-class ladies sailed
noisily in. One pink and fruity, thirty-fivish, with voluptuous
bosom burgeoning from her coat of squirrel-skin, emitting a super-
feminine scent of Parma violets: the other middle-aged, tough, and
curried--India, presumably. Close behind them a dark, grubby, shy
young man slipped through the doorway as apologetically as a cat.
He was one of the shop's best customers--a flitting, solitary
creature who was almost too shy to speak and who by some strange
manipulation kept himself always a day away from a shave.
Gordon repeated his formula:
'Good afternoon. Can I do anything for you? Are you looking for
any particular book?'
Fruity-face overwhelmed him with a smile, but curry-face decided to
treat the question as an impertinence. Ignoring Gordon, she drew
fruity-face across to the shelves next to the new books where the
dog-books and cat-books were kept. The two of them immediately
began taking books out of the shelves and talking loudly. Curry-
face had the voice of a drill-sergeant. She was no doubt a
colonel's wife, or widow. The Nancy, still deep in the big book on
the Russian ballet, edged delicately away. His face said that he
would leave the shop if his privacy were disturbed again. The shy
young man had already found his way to the poetry shelves. The two
ladies were fairly frequent visitors to the shop. They always
wanted to see books about cats and dogs, but never actually bought
anything. There were two whole shelves of dog-books and cat-books.
'Ladies' Corner,' old McKechnie called it.
Another customer arrived, for the library. An ugly girl of twenty,
hatless, in a white overall, with a sallow, blithering, honest face
and powerful spectacles that distorted her eyes. She was an
assistant at a chemist's shop. Gordon put on his homey library
manner. She smiled at him, and with a gait as clumsy as a bear's
followed him into the library.
'What kind of book would you like this time, Miss Weeks?'
'Well'--she clutched the front of her overall. Her distorted,
black-treacle eyes beamed trustfully into his. 'Well, what I'd
REALLY like's a good hot-stuff love story. You know--something
'Something modern? Something by Barbara Bedworthy for instance?
Have you read Almost a Virgin?'
'Oh no, not her. She's too Deep. I can't bear Deep books. But I
want something--well, YOU know--MODERN. Sex-problems and divorce
and all that. YOU know.'
'Modern, but not Deep,' said Gordon, as lowbrow to lowbrow.
He ranged among the hot-stuff modern love-stories. There were not
less than three hundred of them in the library. From the front
room came the voices of the two upper-middle-class ladies, the one
fruity, the other curried, disputing about dogs. They had taken
out one of the dog-books and were examining the photographs.
Fruity-voice enthused over the photograph of a Peke, the ickle
angel pet, wiv his gweat big Soulful eyes and his ickle black
nosie--oh, so ducky-duck! But curry-voice--yes, undoubtedly a
colonel's widow--said Pekes were soppy. Give her dogs with guts--
dogs that would fight, she said; she hated these soppy lapdogs, she
said. 'You have no Soul, Bedelia, no Soul,' said fruity-voice
plaintively. The door-bell pinged again. Gordon handed the
chemist's girl Seven Scarlet Nights and booked it on her ticket.
She took a shabby leather purse out of her overall pocket and paid
He went back to the front room. The Nancy had put his book back in
the wrong shelf and vanished. A lean, straight-nosed, brisk woman,
with sensible clothes and gold-rimmed pince-nez--schoolmarm
possibly, feminist certainly--came in and demanded Mrs Wharton-
Beverley's history of the suffrage movement. With secret joy
Gordon told her that they hadn't got it. She stabbed his male
incompetence with gimlet eyes and went out again. The thin young
man stood apologetically in the corner, his face buried in D. H.
Lawrence's Collected Poems, like some long-legged bird with its
head buried under its wing.
Gordon waited by the door. Outside, a shabby-genteel old man with
a strawberry nose and a khaki muffler round his throat was picking
over the books in the sixpenny box. The two upper-middle-class
ladies suddenly departed, leaving a litter of open books on the
table. Fruity-face cast reluctant backward glances at the dog-
books, but curry-face drew her away, resolute not to buy anything.
Gordon held the door open. The two ladies sailed noisily out,
He watched their fur-coated upper-middle-class backs go down the
street. The old strawberry-nosed man was talking to himself as he
pawed over the books. A bit wrong in the head, presumably. He
would pinch something if he wasn't watched. The wind blew colder,
drying the slime of the street. Time to light up presently.
Caught by a swirl of air, the torn strip of paper on the Q. T.
Sauce advertisement fluttered sharply, like a piece of washing on
the line. Ah!
Sharply the menacing wind sweeps over
The bending poplars, newly bare,
And the dark ribbons of the chimneys
Veer downward; flicked by whips of air
Torn posters flutter.
Not bad, not bad at all. But he had no wish to go on--could not go
on, indeed. He fingered the money in his pocket, not chinking it,
lest the shy young man should hear. Twopence-halfpenny. No
tobacco all tomorrow. His bones ached.
A light sprang up in the Prince of Wales. They would be swabbing
out the bar. The old strawberry-nosed man was reading an Edgar
Wallace out of the twopenny box. A tram boomed in the distance.
In the room upstairs Mr McKechnie, who seldom came down to the
shop, drowsed by the gas-fire, white-haired and white-bearded, with
snuff-box handy, over his calf-bound folio of Middleton's Travels
in the Levant.
The thin young man suddenly realized that he was alone and looked
up guiltily. He was a habitue of bookshops, yet never stayed
longer than ten minutes in any one shop. A passionate hunger for
books, and the fear of being a nuisance, were constantly at war in
him. After ten minutes in any shop he would grow uneasy, feel
himself de trop, and take to flight, having bought something out of
sheer nervousness. Without speaking he held out the copy of
Lawrence's poems and awkwardly extracted three florins from his
pocket. In handing them to Gordon he dropped one. Both dived for
it simultaneously; their heads bumped against one another. The
young man stood back, blushing sallowly.
'I'll wrap it up for you,' said Gordon.
But the shy young man shook his head--he stammered so badly that he
never spoke when it was avoidable. He clutched his book to him and
slipped out with the air of having committed some disgraceful
Gordon was alone. He wandered back to the door. The strawberry-
nosed man glanced over his shoulder, caught Gordon's eye, and moved
off, foiled. He had been on the point of slipping Edgar Wallace
into his pocket. The clock over the Prince of Wales struck a
quarter past three.
Ding Dong! A quarter past three. Light up at half past. Four and
three-quarter hours till closing time. Five and a quarter hours
till supper. Twopence halfpenny in pocket. No tobacco tomorrow.
Suddenly a ravishing, irresistible desire to smoke came over
Gordon. He had made up his mind not to smoke this afternoon. He
had only four cigarettes left. They must be saved for tonight,
when he intended to 'write'; for he could no more 'write' without
tobacco than without air. Nevertheless, he had got to have a
smoke. He took out his packet of Player's Weights and extracted
one of the dwarfish cigarettes. It was sheer stupid indulgence; it
meant half an hour off tonight's 'writing' time. But there was no
resisting it. With a sort of shameful joy he sucked the soothing
smoke into his lungs.
The reflection of his own face looked back at him from the greyish
pane. Gordon Comstock, author of MICE; en l'an trentiesme de son
eage, and moth-eaten already. Only twenty-six teeth left.
However, Villon at the same age was poxed on his own showing.
Let's be thankful for small mercies.
He watched the ribbon of torn paper whirling, fluttering on the
Q. T. Sauce advertisement. Our civilization is dying. It MUST be
dying. But it isn't going to die in its bed. Presently the
aeroplanes are coming. Zoom--whizz--crash! The whole western
world going up in a roar of high explosives.
He looked at the darkening street, at the greyish reflection of his
face in the pane, at the shabby figures shuffling past. Almost
involuntarily he repeated:
'C'est l'Ennui--l'oeil charge d'un pleur involontaire,
Il reve d'echafauds en fumant son houka!'
Money, money! Corner Table! The humming of the aeroplanes and the
crash of the bombs.
Gordon squinted up at the leaden sky. Those aeroplanes are coming.
In imagination he saw them coming now; squadron after squadron,
innumerable, darkening the sky like clouds of gnats. With his
tongue not quite against his teeth he made a buzzing, bluebottle-
on-the-window-pane sound to represent the humming of the
aeroplanes. It was a sound which, at that moment, he ardently
desired to hear.